Still in great hands.

We have kind of been living in a fog lately. Chemo is getting much harder. The Dr. has decided not to have me start my 4th cycle until some of my stats are more stable. I don't know why I just can't be normal and react the way the rest of the population does. This program he has me on is a pretty aggressive one and I was told it would be tough but sometimes I just have a difficult time keeping the faith and trusting that all is in the Lord's hands and HE knows what is best for me.

I am grateful for Ben for reminding me of the many miracles we have seen so far and I just need to focus on that. I have such a great support system that I really could not be in a better situation. Between my faithful companion, children, extended family, mission family, ward family and close friends life really is good and I can't forget that. Thanks to my good friend Julie my wound is healing much faster than what the wound clinic had expected. I only go into the clinic one day a week now and the rest of the time Julie comes here and takes care of me. She is so dedicated and caring that I know she is the reason for the quick healing.

When we left our mission our mission President and his wife came to the airport to send us off. At that time Sister Brubaker told me that I had angels all around me and I can tell you that she is right. I have seen and felt the strength of angles from both here on earth and those on the other side of the veil at more times than I can tell you. We really do not walk this path of life alone. We just don't always stop and recognize those individuals the Lord allows to walk along side.